J.K., U Da Woman!!!

The book is done!!! It was awesome! I loved it, however I do have a few questions. My main one and I know it isn't very important. . . SPOILER ALERT! I almost forgot to warn you, even though the people reading this ramble have already read the book. Go go Char & Meggles! So yes my concern isn't all that important, but Teddy Lupin should not have been going to Hogwarts. He would have been 19 years old and unless things changed people "graduate" at 17. Now, there might be a couple reasons he was going, 1) He could have a job there and like his father was taking the train to get to his job, or 2) He didn't pass what he needed to and ended up staying a couple more years. >_> I don't really like option 2 and I would like to think that he is a new professor. *nods* I'm sure the two of you would agree with me whole heartedly. *grins*

The interview with J.k. was fun to watch and I would love to sit down with her and talk about Harry and ask her things about the damn elder wand! Char and I chatted about this and we don't quite understand how it was meant to be Draco's, but since Harry won his other wand then he became true master of it? O_o Maybe you understand that one Meggles, and if you do please enlighten the rest of us. I think it is awesome that Harry and Ron are aurors! ^_^ Before the book came out I thought he might be the defense against the dark arts teacher. *shrugs* I figured he'd be one of those two, but he taught everyone in DA so well that I thought it would be a good career choice. And THREE children! *laughs* I think it's cool that the one son is named Albus Severus Potter. *hearts that!* Ooo, and Snape is my all time favorite character! He's so wonderfully complicated! I love my misunderstood characters so much and he is totally misunderstood until Harry sees his memories. I believe Snape's memories chapter is the best part of the book. *grins* I've always adored him and it was such a treat to read about his past. ^_^

SPOILER ALERT DONE!

The last couple of days I have been going to my AEOA classes to learn about purchasing a home. Woot! The more I learn about it the more exciting it seems, but then I also wonder if I can afford it. Owning a home is major responsibility, but I feel like it is time for me. I need to be more on my own, I need the independence from my apartment. I want my money to go toward something that matters! Plus, after I get a home I could maybe get a cheap-ish car and get a second job because 35 hours a week just doesn't cut it. That little extra income sure would help. And I'm sure I could get a job no problem seeing how wonderful I am. ~_^ There is a lot of information to take in, but I am learning quite a bit. They give us a thick booklet that I will be able to use as a reference in future. I figure I will read each chapter that relates to the step that I am in of buying a home. For instance, next week when I plan on looking for pre-approval that is when I will read chapter one fully. *nods* And then when I am ready to continue on I will read further. *smiles* The $35 I paid for this class I think will be well worth the moo-lah.

Char came to visit me this last weekend! Yay! We had fruit smoothies, chatted, went to the park and ate breakfast! ^_^ It was good to see her and be able to have some "girl time." Soon I will be able to see Meg on Sept. 7 and see Char on Sept. 14! I'm such a lucky little duck! It will be two good weekends in a row! I mean a girl can't get any luckier than that, can I? *thinks* Nah, I don't think I can. ^_^ However, this time I come down there I will not be buying anything as expensive as an ipod! *laughs* I think I will keep my spending to a minimum. *nods* Gotta save up for that house I want.

This coming up weekend little Boston and I are finally going to have our sleepover that I have wanted to do for the longest time! We are going to have so much fun! We will play video games, bake cookies, watch movies and do whatever else we can think of. I thought it would be fun to play flashlight tag in the front yard! That would be an absolute BLAST! *excited* I don't spend nearly enough time with the little guy and that bums me out. We'll make up for it by having nothing but fun this weekend. ^_^ And woot for spaghetti because that is what we are having for din din. *huge grin*

Now it is time for me to go watch Die Hard With a Vengence! ^_^ Lindsey is letting me borrow all 3 movies and I liked the first the best so far. Now I can compare the third one to the other two and I am curious to see the 4th one. Too bad it isn't here anymore at the theater. *shrugs* Oh well, I will just have to rent it when it comes out. *nod nod*

Emotions Are Funny

Hmm, I don't even know how to start this entry.

Well, here I go. As most of you know, I liked a guy and I was excited to know someone else who bought and owned a PS3, kinda rare to find people like that since PS3's are so damned expensive. Anyway, a couple days ago I asked this guy out. :P Well, I was turned down. Fact is I was upset, but as we all know I got over it. I even suspected this person liked my roomie and he does. *nods* Him and I just don't have enough in common, in my opinion. We just don't click. It's as simple as that. Now I admit it is somewhat an odd situation, but I am not angry with anyone. And I told him this. I also told him that if he wanted he could go for it and ask my roomie out. Most people would find this odd, but I had my shot and it didn't make it into the basket. Yes, I am blogging about this because it is a big thing in my life. It did upset me, but I have kept my smile and I am moving on. *nods* Like I told him, there is no point in dwelling on it. Why be emo about it and waste your time being sad. *smiles* There is no sense in it since this beautiful planet of ours keeps spinning and I see no reason to exit the ride. Life can be exciting and even though this is not a highlight I have proven to myself I can ask a guy out. And someday, some lucky guy will get to enjoy my quirks. ^_^

Now that I am done lifting my spirit I shall go into some good news. We all know I have been super upset over the crew. That I admit did effect me horribly since I have known them for so long. They were truly wonderful friends until whatever happened, happened. Well, I took a leap of faith and after seeing Jae and Warumono at the store and chatting with them for a long time I decided to reach out again. I gave Luke-san a call and he was at work, so I decided to try my luck with Jae & Waru. To my delight I learned Jae and Waru got a little kitten. ^_^ *meows* I'm so happy for them and what a wonderful thing to get. Someday I will get my Holmes and Watson. Later on I called Luke-san again, but he had gone over to Chris's and Luke's mom told me to call his cell. I did so, but I got his voicemail. I left a message and to my delight Luke-san called me back. It was so good to hear their voices. ^_^ I just hope things can turn around and my schedule will be full with my two crews. I <3 each crew very much.

Now I'm done with the mushy crap. :P A bit ago Swiss and I had a bat in the apartment. It was cute, but when it flew at me I did scream like a schoolgirl and so did Swiss. Are we pathetic? Hell no! You would have screamed too. *nods* The poor little thing landed on the blinds by the door and Jen pinned it while I grabbed it with my handy dandy red sweatshirt. ^_^ Poor little thing was squeaky and clicky. I just hope it is doing well now and I hope it didn't get hurt in anyway. ^_^ Hmm, I should have named it. Well I will do the honors now, the little bat shall be known forever as Swoop! For he swooped like a pro and shall always be remembered for his mad swooping skillz.

Good night. I'm going to go enjoy the rest of my night by reading and then watching Bleach and Blood Plus. Woot for anime!

Harry Potter Pwns!

I'm not too far in the 7th book yet, but what I have read is keeping me on the edge of my seat! *happy* So far 2 characters have died in the book. Ooo, wait don't read this it might be a spoilers. O_O Hmm, maybe I should just stop talking about it right now. . . however, the person who is reading this is probably already past the part I am. Oh well, I won't be one of the spoiler sports. *snickers* Bad joke, I know and I am full of em'!

Yesterday, Saturday I went and had some lunch with my favorite little nephew. ^_^ When he knew he was going to see me he got so excited and wanted to have lunch right then, even after he ate his cereal for breakfast. *cuted out* After a fun little lunch we went to play video games. It's fun playing games with a little guy who spots a bunch of things. He gets excited about and he says, "Turn around! There's a BOX!!!" I of course turn around and find the path to the box, even if I have to go out of my way. *laughs*

And then after that I went home to take a nap since I got up early to buy my book. Yay naps! After my nap I read a little more and then Rich called since he was coming over to finish up Burst Angel. His friend was visiting, so Jen and I joined him for dinner. His friend seemed quiet and friendly. ^_^ His other friend was definitely a talker, which is good since I find it hard to grab words sometimes and when I do I'll ramble. :P

After dinner we (Rich, Jen and I) went back to watch the last bit of Burst Angel and I do have to say this about the ending, at least it concluded. Meg, the one character, who constantly was kidnapped by monsters, robots and people became a bad ass at the end. Pfffhahahahahaha! *rolls on floor* That girl couldn't save a cat from a tree in my opinion, let alone turn 180 degrees and become a bad ass femme fatale! Ohh, the hilarity in that.

And for the second time I watched Transformers. ^_^ Such an awesome movie. Rich paid for both of us and that is super sweet of you Rich. *bows* Arigato Rich-san!

O_O Duuuude! Seriously the bathrooms at the theater have these crazy hand dryers! They are so powerful it makes your skin move. *nod nod* I know, isn't that the craziest thing ever!!! I need to use public restrooms more often apparently. *laughs* Just so I can see the water fly off my as my skin trembles beneath the air of doooooooom! Yay doom!

This is turning into a long entry isn't it? Poor Rich his charge light on his car was on and he barely had lights. :( So then I said, "There is a futon." He couldn't drive home in the dark like that. *shakes head* So the lucky boy got to sleep on my futon and listen to the bar crowd. Yay for drunk people and the fights! Yes, a woman was very upset with her boyfriend and the entire street had the pleasure of hearing her colorful language. *laughs* I could still hear her even when she was a couple blocks away. O_O That girl has some serious lungs on her, but I bet her vocal chords are hurting today. ^_^

Ohh and we watched the anime called Mouse. So far, meh. Not too impressed and it turns out that the episodes are 15 minutes long. >_< WTF. No wonder it was so cheap. It has it's funny moments, but 15 minute episodes! Oh well, I have seen worse. *laughs* Hmm, I should finish Lovelss, I only have a couple eps, or the last ep to watch.

Well I'm off to do some more reading and Rich will be calling soon to get a ride back so he can grab his car. It was pouring rain this morning and there was no way he could get to work without windshield wipers, or lights. Fortunately it is all clear now and he will be able to drive safely home. ^_^ Wootzor! Ok, ok, I am truly off to find out what happens next to Harry! *excited*

Kushes In Disguise, More Than Meets The Eye

Transformers was one word to me, SWEET! 'Nuf said and I know I'm a geek about big robots, thusly it makes sense that I want it when it comes out on DVD. *nod nod* The humor was adorable and I love how Bumblebee had so much emotion for a robot! It's funny how Bumblebee became my favorite. . . especially since bees freak the crap out of me. *shivers* Scary little buzz makers that STING! But Bumblebee the robot is just too cute and everyone should <3 him.

Speaking of stinging, buzzing insects my parents have some in their porch. -_- I was not a happy girl when I heard them humming in there. Of course my mother didn't warn me by saying, "Oh Kush, be careful there are frightening insects in the porch that sting and kill people." But oh no, she thought they were dead since my dad sprayed them. Well guess what, they are still buzzin' man and they are planning an attack of doom.

So anyway, life is going nicely. I am a little confused with somethings that are happening in my life, but fortunately I have good friends to vent at. Maybe someday I will do a big ol' rant about it, but now is not the time. Right now I just need to straighten things out and ask advice like I always do. :P

This coming up weekend Meggles will be visiting! Woot! I just hope the street dance isn't too big of a pain. It's ok to be at for a little bit, but to live near it makes you want to rip your hair out. Not to mention the fact that there will be a band right outside our window! O_O Rar! However, we shall see Mr. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix and Ratatouie. (No idea how to spell it, but I can say it!) Meggles b-day was in May and I can finally give her her present. Do you want to know what I got her? Ok, I'll tell you it is. . . *whispers* Awesome huh! She'll so love it, especially the one thing. *looks excited* And the card is just too Meggles! *shows card* Cool huh!? I thought maybe the one part should be red, but *shrugs* I think she'll like it all the same. *nods*

Now I have to talk about World of Warcraft news. Lalique. . . is now 60!!!! Yee-ah! He is so pimp ridin' his epic chicken named Heavenfeathers. *cuted out* I go so fast now! O_O I go ZOOOOOOOOMMMMM! ^_^ Tee hee. Meggles when you come you will see my sweet ride and I'll show you some neat stuff Lal can do. Woot for 60! *excited*

Ok, I am actually going to go play WoW now, but not Lal. I am going to play Birtha. *nods* I've somewhat neglected her. :( I could grind rep with Lal, but grinding makes me want to puke, so I'll skip that for tonight. Ooo, and I can't forget that ani-monday is on tonight! ^_^ Hawt!

Pirates Are Savvy, Are You?

Ok, first I have to say this before I begin my entry. . . Ok, so I have started it and you are being silly. I want to say that it is crazy going from Mac during the day (yay mac commands!) to PC at night (yay PC commands) but I have a tendency to get them mixed up! Never fails when I'm at work I'll catch myself doing a PC command and when I come home mac commands. ^_^ *laughs* Ok, I'm done.

Ok, this will be my last review on a third in a trilogy movie. Pirates was quite interesting. The graphics (I know I always mention graphics, but that is a major thing to me I guess) were awesome and when they went to. . .wherever it was where there was glaciers that was really pretty, especially on a big screen. *nod nod* The story seemed. . . complicated because once again you have to keep track of who is backstabbing who. I have to admit if you didn't like the second one you might not like this one. I liked it, but I don't think I would buy it on DVD, but then again I like the first one and the second one made me laugh and if you have the first two then. . . well, might as well have the third one. In all honesty this is another one I hope they do not make a fourth. Although they did leave it open for another movie, but they did make it so Elizabeth and Will wouldn't be in it.

Hmm, what else to talk about. Last Saturday was a happy day since I pre-ordered Harry Potter book 7. W007! Am I excited? YES!!! I even took the Monday after off to read. I'm a geek and I am totally ok with that. *pushes up Harry Potter glasses* At least I'm not a total freak and plan to get a lightning scar/tatoo on my head. . .well ,I didn't seriously think about it. >_>;

Also on Saturday I weighed myself. I don't hardly ever do that and the last time I did it was like. . . hmm, a year, year and a half? Anyhoo, it turns out I have lost about 17-18 pounds during that time. O_O Can you believe it? I mean I knew my pants were getting big on me, but I didn't realize how much I had lost. I guess walking everyday really does work and the fact that I'm probably eating better not living with my parents. Normally you would think one would eat better with their parents, but my family (since we didn't have a lot of time) tended to eat Crapdonald's. So now if I take my diet a little more seriously and keep up the exercise, even in winter, then I think I can loose even more in a year. Wish me luck!

Char and I went to the land of the loon a couple weekends ago and we had a nice visit. It's rare we get to spend 4 hours together like we did. When she comes up (and this is understandable) she makes it a priority to see everyone since it is rare she gets up here. I bought an adorable picture frame that says my nephew's name in the wood! It cost me $18, but I figure for a quality frame it was worth it, not to mention I needed a frame for a pic I had of him.

In WoW news Lalique is level 56! Hell yeah! Lucky me though I get to grind rep for some awesome enchants. These enchants let you add +15 agility to boots and crazy cool stuff like that! And I am only four levels away from getting my epic mount! Woot for epic turkeys! Ok, I prefer to call them chocobos! Yay! *excited* Ok, I have to go now.

Happy, Warm Headphones!

Not last night, but the night before I could not sleep! *flails* I suspect it is because I did nothing no Monday, but rest and play WoW. *nods* So, since I was all rested I couldn't sleep. I would blame the drunk people at the bar across the street, but I can't because I can sleep through that. *smiles* Just like I can sleep through big t-storms, elephants stampeding by and trains. It was somewhat amusing Monday night since some drunk person ran into a fire hydrant. *shakes head* I heard the crunch and thought, "What was that?!" However, I was in bed and didn't care to look. However, I then heard "Fshhhhhhhhhhh" and drunks going, "Wow man! Look at that!" Well, my curiosity got the better of me (as it usually does) and I went to the living room window. Much better view there. The fire hydrant had water rushing out of it and there was a mini river flowing down the road. O_O Fortunately there was a city truck there, or whatever, and the water stopped in about 10 minutes. *nods*

Today is Wednesday and I did have plans of going to see Pirates, however, when I was saying my good byes at work Laura asked what movie I was going to, so I told her. "Ohhh," she said, "I want to see that too." Gloria asked who I was going with and I said, "Me!" Laura mentioned how her daughter already saw it with her brother, so I asked if she wanted to go with me. She thought that would be great, so I don't have to see it alone. W007! As I mentioned before, Laura is cute to watch a movie with because she gets so into it! *giggle*

Today my ear hurt so bad!!! T_T Ok, I'm being a baby about it, if it truly hurt that bad I would have left work. However it did bother me today and fortunately I did have some Advil to help. That is where my happy, warm headphones come in! ((^_^)) <--- Look! Me wearing headphones! Ha ha ha! They not only play music but kept my ears warm which made them not so soar. *nods* I did go to the doctor and she said that is a nose thing, not an ear infection like I had originally thought. My tube that goes to my left ear is plugged and swollen, most likely due to allergies, but I was worried since Steph at work has an ear infection. Plus, once I had to go to the ER because I had such a bad ear infection and that was not fun. So I thought I would nip it in the bud and go today. Now I feel like I wasted $30 for the co-pay since it wasn't a big deal. -_- Oh well, better to be safe than sorry I guess.

Right now I am trying to watch the second part of Angel's Feather OVA, but the thing doesn't seem like it wants to load!! *sobs* I want bishie action man and youtube is denying the leader of the universe! Rar! *waves tiny dino arms*

I went to look at a house today with my realty lady person. *grins* It was a shit hole. -_- I didn't mind that it needed paint, new carpet, or the fact that I would have had to clean like I have never cleaned before, but the basement was yuck. We have had rain, but it hasn't been major down pours like we can have and the basement was leaking. Not a good sign at all. And when you have leaky basements you have stinky basements and that is why there was mold growing on the walls upstairs IMO. Well, the hunt has begun again so lets cross our fingers and hope for the best! Dianne says she thinks it is a buyers market, so I'm in luck and will probably find a decent house for the money I want to spend. ^_^ I have high hopes! If I do get a house I will have to get a second job so I can go on that vacation with Meggles! *bounces*

Last weekend I saw a thing on Disney World on the Travel Channel (<3 that channel) and it made me even more excited! I so want to see Turtle Talk with Crush from Finding Nemo! *flails* He is totally interactive!!!! He knows what color shirts people have and he asks their names and says it back! OMFG! Is that not the sweetest turtle action ever?!

Ok, I have rambled on long enough. Next weekend I'll tell you if I was disappointed, or happy with Pirates. *crosses fingers* Lets hope it rocks my pirate hat off!

Shrek Should Be In WoW!

Wouldn't that be cool! I mean there are ogres, but none of them are really friendly like Shrek would be, but he could be the nice ogre. *nods*

Friday night I went with Laura to see Shrek the Third. I liked it, but I don't think it was as good as the others. The animation and graphics were splendid, but that is to be expected since the other movies were so well done. In this third installment I felt like the story wasn't as intriguing and it was predictable. *shrugs* It had it's funny moments all right, but there wasn't anything to surprise you. In all honesty I hope they don't make a fourth movie because it would be crap IMO. Shrek was not cluttered like Spiderman, but both had mediocre storylines. *shrugs* Am I impressed with the summer movies so far. . . not really. Don't get me wrong, they were fun to see and I love the movie theater atmosphere, but they didn't blow me away is all. *grins*

The next movie I am looking forward to is Pirates! *waves Jolly Roger* You can bet your sweet pippy that I will be wearing my Pirates shirt and my pants that magically match them. *nods* Well, they are more like capris. Anyway, I don't think I will be disappointed with Pirates since it is a continuation and there is no book to make me go, "Aww, it didn't happen like that in the book!" I'm crossing my fingers for you Disney even though you at times freak me out with all of your giganticness! O_O

I did have plans of typing this all last night, but there were severe t-storms in our area and we even had a tornado warning. *nods* It was super cold and we still get tornadoes, what is up with that Ms. Earth, hmmm? I also had plans of typing this up earlier tonight, but the new patch came out for WoW. Holy megabytes! It was 276 megs, or something like that. It took me all night to download it, but from what I have seen so far it is a nice little patch. *grins*

OMG! When I was waiting for Laura to meet me at the theater Friday I decided to go into the arcade they have there. *laughs* Big shocker there huh? Kush goes into an arcade! *gasp* Ok, in all honesty I go to an arcade whenever I can because. . . VIDEO GAMES!!!!! Yee-ah! So I saw this little machine with basically junky things in it and the objective was to press the button and have the line stop on the "You Win" label. *shrugs* I was basically wasting time, so I thought, "What the hell, it's 50 cents." I dropped a quarter in, practiced a little and then dropped the next quarter in. I waited while the column spun and then hit the button. It continued to turn and then it said, "You win!" And the machine dropped a silvery looking watch. A little boy was watching me and when I bent down to get my prize he was examining that machine very closely. He even pressed the button in hopes of getting a prize I think. I did think about giving him the watch, but decided against it. A) It looked too big for him, B) It, to me is a style of watch a little boy would not want, & C) Well, there is no C. Those were my two main reasons. So yeah, I'm cool and now I can't get rid of the watch. People think it's cool I won it, but I already have a watch I don't wear. *shrugs* Oh well, I'll keep it just to say, "I won this for 50 cents in an arcade." *nods*

Tonight I started to watch the anime Loveless. O_O It is cute! Soubi, even though he says he is not hentai, I think he is. *nods* When you say things like, "You can punish me if you like." and similar things he is a little perverted. *grins* I would loved to have put him on my bishie list, but he smokes constantly. *sigh* And he doesn't like older women. *ponders* I wonder how old he is? He is in college becoming an art student, so my guess is at least 18-19. Come to think of it, not is it just older women, but I don't think he likes women in general. *grin* *thinks about episode 4* There are 12 episodes in the series and I saw four of them tonight. That is what I did while I downloaded the crazy, never ending patch. ^_^ I should have read book 4 of "Descendants of Darkness," or read "And the Sea will Tell."

Ok, I have rambled on long enough. I am super tired today and don't know why and I think I will go get ready for bed now. O_O Um yeah, it is quarter to midnight!!! Eep! Here I come pillow!!! ~_~ zzzzzz

Spidey Swings Into His Third Movie

The thing I have noticed is that there are a lot of movies that are thirds this summer and they all tend to come out this month, or in Spiderman 3's case has already come out. Plus they all are movies I have enjoyed before and Spidey 3 and Pirates are the ones I was most excited for. *grins* I just got back from seeing Spiderman 3 and now I shall give a review on it.

To begin, I liked it. I will be the first to admit that I do not know that much about Spiderman. I never read the comics, but I did watch the cartoon when TV stations repeated it. The story moved somewhat slow sometimes, but I think they wanted us to know that Peter Parker is human, not just a guy with super powers. That has really been the whole idea behind Spidey. Stan Lee wanted to give him the human element so we the reader, movie goer and yes cartoon watcher could understand him, not as a hero, but as person. He definitely has his hardships and so does his love Mary Jane. While he was feeling like he was on top of the world she was feeling so low in the dumps and I think she really didn't want to bring him down. Spiderman became cocky and I think Toby McGuire did a great job of bringing out Spidey's dark side. Remember kids, come to the dark side, we have cookies. (That is off a t-shirt that I find quite amusing.)

Now onto the graphics. I was most impressed with Sandman. *nods* I don't think people realize how difficult it is to make smoke, sand and snow in 3D. It is one of, if not the most difficult things to create and they did a stellar job. *thinks of guy at dorms* *giggles* The animation, the modeling and the texturing were stupendous! I would love to have mad 3D skillz like that. Venom is always someone you love to hate. However, I would liked to have seen more of Eddie as Venom. *grins* But they had three villains going in one movie and I think sometimes it was a little cluttered, but they did pull it off fairly well. The storyline was not confusing at all, but like I said it did seem like they were trying to fit too much into a two hour span. As much as I liked Sandman and the graphics they used for him I really don't think he needed to be there. Personally I think they could have done more with Harry Osbourne and Eddie Brock if they didn't have Flint Marco. Then again the ending makes more sense if you do have them all. O_o Did I just contradict myself? Oh well, all in all I liked it. It was a fun movie to watch, but it does have it's sad parts. If this truly was the last Spiderman it was good. I'm sure some people will be disappointed a little bit with one thing, but I won't ruin it for you. I really wanted to stay until the very end of the credits to see if there was anything extra, but I had to go to the store and buy milk and conditioner. I should look up online and see if there is anything extra at the end. I don't even know if the first two movies had anything extra at their ends, but I don't really think so.

I think some people were disappointed in the movie, but I wasn't. I never go to these movies expecting too much. Some are better than others and the Spiderman movies are definitely better than most comic book movies. Stan Lee should be very proud of his creation and how they portrayed Spidey in the movies. *nods*

Not much else is going on in life. Last Sunday we started playing new characters once again. I'm playing Tyberius, a gladiator who became a slave when he was around 8 or 9 years old. He fought in Maiestus in the city of Illa, but was then bought by my favorite assassin, Marius Deathblade. Mar is getting up in age now and he has found an heir to take his place as lord, but he has to teach the kid how to fight and that is why he bought Ty. Fortunately, Ty was saved by Nikki and Gabe (Khori & Mike's characters) because they were looking for Mar's daughter. They had this notion in their heads that Mar had her, but of course he didn't because he doesn't care one lick about a daughter. Especially one who is going to grow up as a goodie-two-shoes. *nods* He would rather end both the daughter and the mother, but he would never do it because he values his life more than their's. You see, Nikki and Gabe are quite powerful and so is their friend Silver, my character. He knows they adore Harmony, his former sweetheart, and he would be the first to be blamed if anything horrid happened to her. He used to stay away, but now he is mad. Nikki stole good slaves and blamed him for the disappearance of a girl he doesn't even know anything about. So, it is her and Gabe's fault that his interest has been peeked. He wants revenge for being annoyed and I have to admit is curious about the life he helped create and he does want to know why she, Azmaria, keeps running away from Harmony. He has had frequent visits from Nikki & Gabe lately and it really needs to stop. *nods* I ramble! Anyway, what a coincidence! Azmaria, Ty and Three are all traveling together. Poor Ty was found by his former master, Mar, and now has the job of turning Azmaria evil. It is the perfect revenge if Mar can pull it off with Ty's help. I still need to hammer some details out on why he would want to have revenge on Harmony. I would think because she was bossing him around while she was pregnant. *shrugs* Honestly, if you know Mar that is enough reason to get revenge on someone, especially a woman. Not to mention the frequent visits. Grr. *grins* Yeah, it makes sense to me.

So I must go now and eat some fast food. Yeah, I know it isn't healthy, but. . . well I have my reasons for not making real food at the moment. :D

Bye Bye Archives

Well it seems as if my archives have been deleted when Google took over blogger. *cries* Those were my posts and I want them back. *nods* How am I ever going to remember everything? This is like a journal and this is how I wanted to remember stuff. Who would have thought they would have deleted it? Perhaps there is a shimmer of hope and I can still save my posts. When I logged in it said I had 266 posts or so, so I am thinking maybe they can be salvaged. Perhaps I could e-mail blogger begging them to help me get my memories back. *nods*

Hey guess what? I'm back and I'm not dead. *smiles* I haven't posted in like 7 months, or so. Maybe I'll get back into it and give Meggles something to read.

A lot has happened over these 7 months. *nods* Some moments couldn't be topped and others I would like to forget. I think I will talk about the good stuff first.

Well, I like a little Japanese band called Dir En Grey and I never thought I would be able to see them, but guess who came to MN? U2? No. Franz Ferdinand? Nope! Dir En Grey! Yes, they came to Minneapolis and I, Kush Ball got to go see them! *bounces* When I heard Kyo sing live shivers ran down my spine. It was that moving to me because I have always listened to them on CDs and mp3s. Ooo, is that man ripped! Yes, adorable Kyo took his shirt off and. . . I would loved to have touched his tummy. And I cannot forget to mention Shinya for he is my favorite! Man can that man drum! He put the drummers in the bands before to shame! His drums were a hell of a lot cooler than the others. *grins*

Not only did I see Dir En Grey, but I also got to see The Blue Man Group. Wow. They were fantastic! The showmanship and the stamina that these people showed was just amazing! Who ever thought tubing could be put to such an awesome use? *laughs* While I was down to see them I broke down and bought myself an 80 gig ipod. *shy smile* I shouldn't have since I have other things I should pay, such as student loans and whatnot, but I have to admit that it is one of my happiest purchases ever. I love being able to listen to my music and not country all day. Do not get me wrong, I do like country, however, I can't listen to one type of music all day, week after week. I begin to get anxious about it, especially when they play the same damn songs (Fancy, by Reba) every single day!!! So w007 for he ipod! *cheer*

I bought a new computer! What did I name him? Well, I had a small vote at work and everyone seemed to like Vinni, so that is what my new baby is called. I thought about making it a girl and naming it Yeshaya after my albino psion character in D&D. I love Shy, she is such a little fireball, literally. *laughs* Poor thing has quite the story, but she is happy with her husband and children now and I believe she is officially retired. I also thought about naming the compy Sesshoumaru, after one of my favorite anime characters voiced by none other than. . . you guessed it, David Kaye. *grins* But it came down to Vinni because I play World of Warcraft and he is my priest whom I love very much. I have plans of having him as a NPC in my D&D games since he is such good friends with Tipsi. *smile*

In November I got a PS3. Now I know a lot of people hate it, but I like mine and he was accidentally named. I was laughing at work and talking about the PS3 and I called it my Japanese boyfriend, just joking of course and somehow he was named Kenji. *smile* Funny thing, that is what Shy's hubby is named. Maybe I should have had a girl compy. *ponders* Oh and if you are wondering since we are typing about names, I named the ipod Futune. After my darling bard character of course. It plays music for crying out loud and I think Futune would have been upset if I didn't name my ipod after her. *grin* Yes, I know I'm insane, but that's ok, people don't seem to mind too much.

Now, onto some things I just need to get off my chest. Last late October was the last time I saw Jae, Luke-san, Warumono and Chris. I am sad to say that I think I am no longer welcome in that group. I don't even know why. I keep asking myself, "What did I do to make them upset?" "What went wrong?" I admit I was upset when I felt left out, but I feel as if we could have talked about it a little better. I never expected such a good friendship to die so fast. I get choked up even now just thinking about what went wrong. I guess I'm at the point that if they read this I have nothing to lose. Luke, who I did things with constantly all of a sudden became almost nonexistant. I think it is great that him and Chris are close friends, but I just feel as if he didn't have to shut me out completely. If any of you do read this, I'm sorry. I never wanted it to end this way. Honestly, I have thought about writing you all a letter saying good bye and sorry, so I guess this is my letter to you all. This is how I feel and I want you to know that I don't understand. I was upset and I tried to tell you and I really wonder if I should have because I have lost 4 of the best people in my life. I keep saying to myself, "There you go, you opened your big mouth and now look where you are." I admit I am miserable without the fun that I had with all of you and the things I learned. I will always be thankful for the time I did have with you and I just want you all to know that just because I was cleary upset I was never really angry. And Luke-san, I'm sorry that when we went to Saw 3 and you kept saying, "We need to do this again." You said it over and over. I hadn't seen you in months and I didn't know how to respond to that. I almost felt as if I didn't want to get my hopes up and then us not doing anything. I basically set myself up with a self fullfilling prophecy. I really did want to do more with you. I missed and still do miss everyone so horribly much. I feel like such an emotional fool and I hate crying, but I can't help it when I think of what I lost. I had an inkling that it was the end when I came over near the end of October. I hated the feeling. . . and I knew it was officially over when I had said merry christmas to you guys on the answering machine and on blogs. If you do read this and understand that I am confused, would you please send me an explanation of what happend? Maybe all of you are just as confused as I am. In any case, I would really appreciate some sort of explanation so I don't have to wonder.

I hate ending on such a cruddy note, but I truly had to get it out of my system. I doubt anyone will even read that from the crew. *smiles* Anyway, I am basically happy. I like going to work everyday and my book club is one of the best things I could have done. All in all life is good. ^_^

*fans self* Ok, I am going to go work on this thing for my church that I promised I would do. Eep, it's almost 10:30!!!