Bye Bye Apartment

Bye Bye Apartment

Last night was the last time I will ever sleep in this apartment again and today is my final day. I'll miss this place, but it will be nice to be home too.

Good bye Mr. Apartment, we sure had fun. ^_^

Fuckers

Fuckers

How is my day going? Oh fine, you know the usual, a missing Grandpa and packing. Actually that was yesterday since it is after midnight now. I guess my new day (Sunday) is going alright.

Monday I am moving back home. I am really torn between happiness and being bummed out. My apartment is my home and sanctuary. No parents to yell, bother, or irritate me and I can do whatever I wish. I have freedom and most of you know I need my freedom. Then again, I'll be home, the place I grew up and that means friends, family and fun. Hibbi Town is total crap when it comes to shopping and stuff, but dude, everyone I care about is there. See, I'm torn. Plus, I hate packing and all that junk and I just wish I could settle down somewhere with a job and be happy. I don't need a job that pays a gazillion billion dollars, I just need the simple things. What are the simple things? Obviously I need food, water and shelter, but as long as I have my small group of buddies, imagination and what sanity I have left I am a happy little Kush. Yeah, I like my anime and video games, but I do know I could live without them if I really had to. Now I am rambling, lets continue on to the Grandpa story.

Gawd, that woman drives me fucking CRAZY!!!! Those who know me know exactly who I am talking about. Yesterday (Saturday) Scott called the hospital where Grandpa was staying and he asked to speak to him. The nurses told Scott, "There is no Bob here." "WHAT," my brother inquired with worry. Do you blame him? Fucking idiots! They then proceeded to tell him that they needed to speak to family. Scott shocked out of his mind said, "Ok" and hung up. He immediately called my parents fearing the worst and my dad called right away to find Grandpa. The nurses gave him the same bull shit until he said, "I am family! I am his son, his only son." They then explained that my grandfather (who is doing a lot better, by the way) had been transferred to a different hospital on Friday. Yeah, and we had no idea!!! That fucking, gold digging, whore was not going to call and tell us! Dad called her to find out what was going on and this was her lame excuse, "Oh I guess I should have called you, but I was so busy getting his clothes and stuff." How long does it take to get some fucking clothes!? She could have told someone else to call us! The God damn hospital should have called us!!! We're his family!!! Hellllloooooooooo!!!!!!! She makes me so pissed I don't even know what to do except flail and call her inappropriate names. I think we should do something, but my parents don't want to make waves. I understand their reasoning for this, but I really wonder if it's worth getting screwed seven ways past Sunday. This woman is a horrible person and I hate letting her do this to us and my grandfather. She is only causing stress among my little clan and I despise her for it. I dislike using the word hate, but I can honestly say that is how I feel about her. It makes me feel awful because I do not use that word lightly, but I hate that woman. I hate her with every fiber of my being. It makes me cry to even think I hate someone so much. I've never hated anyone, but this woman definitely deserves to be the first on my list.

I'm sorry. This is just really painful and I needed to write it out. Thanks for reading about my stupid stress.

Beep, Beep, Disconnecting, Beeeeeeeeep

Beep, Beep, Disconnecting, Beeeeeeeeep

That isn't what Lain's "sister" said, but I couldn't put connecting because today I called all the people I needed to call to disconnect the electric, phone and the eeeeeeenternet. So there you have it. It is getting close to moving back home. Few days actually. Geez, the time sure flies, doesn't it?

No news on Grandpa so I can't update on that. Wish I could, but I'm sure we will find out soon.

Last night I went to bed at 1 a.m. after R.O.D. (which is a fun anime to watch) and woke up at noon! Yeah, that is 11 hours of sleep! Ok, I guess I needed it, but wow it feels weird to sleep that long.

My modem is teh suck. (Yes, I did spell the wrong.) I was talking to Luke-san and typing on Blogger and the damn thing disconnected. Grrrrr. *looks at modem* Reconnect you grey box bastard. Reconnect now so I can publish and talk more to Luke-san! No, no blinking!!! *bitch slaps it* Gah! *waits somewhat patiently*

Oh hey! Boston graduates from pre-school today. Woot! Next year he starts kindergarden. Isn't that weird?

Exhorried

Exhorried

Exorried has been added to the Kush Dictionary and you might be wondering what it means. Well, all you have to do is put exhausted and worried together and you get "exhorried."

Yesterday my dad called at about 12:30 and when he said, "Hi Sher" I thought he was going to remind me to cancel my phone and all that jazz. Unfortunately, his next sentence was, "It's not good news." I knew right then he was talking about Grandpa and I was right. Grandpa had a stroke at about 10:30 a.m. and is now in the hospital. On the outside he is doing well, but the bleeding is, or was happening near his brainstem. The brainstem is not a good place to have bleeding, not that any place is good, but this is where the brain controls functions such as heartbeat, swallowing and all those things we take for granted. The doctor isn't sure if he is going to make it, or not. It is difficult for older people (he's 84) to heal and all we can do is wait. Tomorrow Grandpa is going to have a cat scan so they know if the bleeding has stopped. If it has then he has a very long road to recovery. I know for a fact Grandpa is a fighter and he is quite stubborn and will not give up easily, but once again it all depends if his brain stops bleeding.

I haven't seen him in a year and it upsets me that after all this time I have to see him like that. He was so happy we came and I know he didn't want us to leave. Scott, Steph and Boston went down there this afternoon. Scott wanted to go with us yesterday, but Steph was on a business trip in Michigan and it is difficult to drop everything, especially with a 5 year old and a dog. I'm glad they went tonight. Scott worries more than I do and I know it was breaking his heart that he couldn't be there.

I hope the cat scan shows good results tomorrow and then we can take it step by step from there.

There is so much more I could type (most of it is bitching, or stupid shit like stories about food), but I am so tired. "Sleeping" in a hospital all night isn't exactly what one would call as restful.

For No One's Amusement, But My Own

For No One's Amusement, But My Own



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Bazillions Of Pieces

Bazillions Of Pieces

Today I broke my first plate in my first apartment.

Kush happily scrubbed away at her clear, glass plate as she waited for people to come look at her apartment. She was going to be moving home soon and would hopefully find a job to save up some money. She was in Luke-san's world, Pielea, thinking about Lotus and Avocado taking care of Olivia and Quinn when all of a sudden the slippery plate dropped out of her hand. Sploosh! Crack! Kushrenada swore as she realized her neat plate broke in a bazillion pieces under the sudsy water. Fortunately for her it broke on top of another plate allowing her to easily throw away the mess. She would have been super pissed if she had to pick glass out of her sink.

The end.

Yes, people have been coming to look at my apartment and it is nerve racking. I think it is my private tendencies that make it so hard for me. These strange people come in, look at your stuff and open closets to reveal more of your stuff! I have this urge to say, "Gawd! Don't you have respect! Don't look at my stuff!" However, I know this isn't sensible because they are here to look at the apartment and get an idea of how big the closets are and stuff. Then I think to myself, "When I came here to look around and the people still lived here I did not look in their closets." Today, one guy even looked in my bathtub. I don't like people, so it is hard for me to let people, no not people, strangers look at my things!

Ok, I am calm now. I'm going to go. . . I don't know, look for a fucking job.

Next Gen Consoles Are Here, Or Soon Will Be

Next Gen Consoles Are Here, Or Soon Will Be

Well, can you believe it? The big three companies Microsoft, Sony and who could forget Nintendo are gearing up to launch their next consoles. Am I excited? Um, duh. It is exciting to me to see where gaming is headed.

E3 is this week and I, as usual, am always curious about it. I can't help it. *shrugs* Anyway, the console wars rage on as usual and here is what I think and links to what the consoles look like and what their specs are.

Sony's Playstation 3

I'll start with Sony's Playstation 3 by saying I think it looks very streamlined. From what I have heard about the press conferences Sony came out ahead with their presentation of their console and it's games. Plus, they had a rubber duck demo! O_O So many duckies in such a little tub! Kawaii!!! I wish I could find the pics of the duckies to share, but alas, I have failed you all. There were even little ships!!! *flails*

One thing I'm glad Sony decided to stick with is the backwards compatability. Here are the specs, here are the games so far (Yes, you do see Devil May Cry 4 and MGS 4 *smiles*), and here is what the console looks like and this is the controller. To me the controller looks big, but I won't judge until I hold it in my excited, tiny hands.

Sony has shown a lot of unbelievable footage and right now that's what it seems like, unbelievable. They say it is real time, but it really makes you wonder if they A) touched it up, or B) it is prerendered. The trailor for Killzone 2 especially makes me wonder. It would be great if games actually looked like that when you were playing them, but is technology really that far? Apparently there is a lot of speculation over this very issue. I guess we will find out if the PS3 can do what Sony says in the future. The release will probably be in spring 2006. Whether that is Japanese launch, or North American launch I am uncertain, but I assume Japanese? Maybe?

Microsoft's Xbox 360

Next we have the Xbox 360 and I have never really been a fan of the Xbox. The one big thing that turned me off when it came out four years ago was the honking controller. I have small hands, even compared to other women, and I was unable to get my short fingers to feel comfortable using it. They have made the controller smaller and I commend them for that, but it is still a little big for me. Anyway, Microsoft has realized Sony did a good thing by making things backwards compatable and mentioned in their press conference that the 360 will be "compatable with our top selling game." Wait, "top selling"? Does this mean only games like Halo will be backwards compatable? *confused* I really hope they aren't dumb enough to go through with something like that. I hope they realize it should be all, or none.

The 360 specs are close to the PS3, but they fall a little short. One thing I did find interesting is that the 360 will now have memory cards. I guess they didn't want to save games on the actual console anymore. Here is what the Xbox 360 will look like. A lot different from the current model. It looks more aesthetically pleasing if you ask me and from what I understand they did this to make it more appealing to the Japanese market. The current Xbox did very poorly in Japan. No surprise really. It was huge and I don't think they have many games that appeal to that market.

One thing Microsoft is trying to obviously do is get a bigger market. I was confused about this when the presenter was talking about Velocity Girl and how she will play with the 360 more because she can make t-shirts. o_O What? They should focus on the actual gamers, not Velocity Girl making t-shirts and selling them to a hardcore gamer like Striker. It just sounded confusing and it didn't make sense. *shakes head* I am still boggling over it actually. T-shirts? @_@

Nintendo's Revolution

Last, but certainly not least, Nintendo's Revolution. One thing that sounded cool was that they are going to release the NES, SNES, and N64 games on the Internet so the gamer can download them onto the Revolution and play them. "Sweet classic gaming action," was the first thing that entered my brain when I heard this.

Can you believe the Revolution is going to be smaller than the Gamecube? O_O It's like tiny! However, Nintendo didn't have too much to say about the Revolution. They showed the little black box, but they didn't even show the controllers. I think it is great that the companies are finally realizing that backwards compatablitly is key because you will be able to play the Gamecube games on the Revolution. Of course, I am surprised Nintendo didn't do this with SNES and the N64 since they did it with the Gameboy.

Here is what the Revolution looks like. I mean, dang it is small. The guy said it is the size of three DVD cases. What is up with Nintendo's fascination with tiny things? This article was the closest thing I found for specs. I was disappointed that Nintendo didn't have a lot to say about the Revolution, but oh well.

Like I mentioned earlier Nintendo has a fascination with things that are small and the fact that they are coming out with a Micro Gameboy Advanced proves it. Nintendo, think about this, do we really need a baby GBA? The answer is, no, no we don't. You have the SP and the DS, lets just leave it at that.

This is all I can offer at this time, but you can bet I will keep an eye on this junk just so I know what console I want when the time comes. Which one would I buy if I had to make the decision right now you ask? I would have to say the PS3. It is compatable with my PS1 and PS2 games and their presentation seemed better. *shrugs* If you want to make your own decisions on what I have said click here to watch the conferences in their entirety if you actually care. I for one have not seen them and I doubt I will see them, but I give you the link for your own amusement. I have learned about all this stuff by what I have read on the Internet and seen on G4, so now you know my resources. I hope this wasn't boring and I hope you feel somewhat informed about the near future of gaming. ^_^

Winx Club? WTF???

Winx Club? WTF???

Today I sat down to watch Miguzi. I usually do not watch this block of cartoons on the Cartoon Network, but I was curious what they had on there. I was lucky enough to see a new (Ooooo!) show they have just added to the line up today.

*sobs* What is I wrongwith people? How could they let this crap even air on national television? It was a drool session! The parents were annoying and the dad was drawn oddly. This is a good way to describe the style of this show, do you know those dolls called Bratz? Yeah, picture those as a cartoon about fairies, witches and guys who train to be heroes. The acting was hardly up to par and that really saddened me. However, then I realized it only makes sense since the animation was atrocious. I was only saddened because there were two actors I recognized. Fortunately, none of them were David, or Paul. (Thank you!)

We all know cartoons are made on computers these days, but this Winx show made it very apparent with the odd camera panning and zooming. I'm sure they were trying to make it look "cool", but they failed miserably. The story from what I could tell was just another magical girl show with nothing special. I watch a show on Toon Disney called W.i.t.c.h. and that show kicks this shows ass by far! Disney, I have to admit you did something good with that show and I have to compliment you on it.

In conclusion, Winx stinx. *nods*

Walking In The Rain

Walking In The Rain

On Tuesday I went for a walk in the rain. It had been sunny earlier, but I figured I would just go later. Then about 7:00 p.m. I jumped up and decided to go. I put on my sneaks, jacket and bounced out the door. Once I opened the door of my building I felt cool drops of water hit me. At first disappointment set in because I wanted to walk! Recently my knee has been bothering me a bit and I figured exercise was what it needed. (I hurt my knee my senior year in high school and now it hates me sometimes. ^_^) Moping down the stairs back to my apartment I looked at my door and then back at the door that led outside. I so did want to walk and it was only a little rain, so I bounced back up the stairs and went for a walk in the rain. There is just something about rain that I love. I also adore cloudy skies because it is darker and the sun bothers my eyes. The air was fresh with that spring smell all around me. Some people had just trimmed their lawns so the smell of freshly cut grass lingered as well. Walking alone is one of the most theraputic things for me to do. It gives me a chance to enjoy my surroundings and reflect on my life, people and the future. A peace comes over me that I can't describe because it just puts me in such a good mood that words would not suffice. The sights, the sounds and the smells just engulf me and I realize what a good life I have. It helps me not worry and makes me feel positive about things. Yes, I will find a job, learn to drive, get a car and a new apartment once I move back to Hibbing. Things are going to turn out great and that is the best feeling in the world.

One of the best things about my little walk was that I found a small waterfall not too far from where I live. Most of you know there is a park near me on 4th Street, but the waterfall was on 3rd!!! At first the sound of rushing water clammering in my ears was confusing at first. As I continued walking I saw a metal fence and realized the odd noise I was hearing was coming from the cute little waterfall. I gasped with delight and leaned over the fence, but not too far. If anyone saw me I'm sure they thought I had never seen a waterfall before, but I was so ecstatic to see a waterfall only a few blocks away from where I lived. I vowed to go back and take photos of it with my digital camera, but the weather has not been good. I would love to go when the sun is out so the greens and browns pop out more.

Tonight I am once again headed home, for tomorrow is Jae's wedding shower! ^_^ Yaaaay! I'm so happy for Warumono and Jae and I wish them the absolute best!

I had heard from Tech TV (I don't even think they call it that anymore. *sad*) that there was a cool clothing store online called Jinx, so I decided to finally check it out. That store is sw33t!! I am now the proud owner of 2 shirts! One is a human barcode and the other is a D&D shirt. It has all the dice and underneathe the dice it says, "Choose your weapon." I <3 that store so much and even joined their newsletter to get discounts! *nods* These discounts will come in handy when I have a job. Ok, off to pack for the weekend. *happy!*

Ear Cleaner Monster

Ear Cleaner Monster

First off, is ear cleaner one word, or two? To me it seems like it would be two words, but English is a funny language so one cannot be certain sometimes. Hold on, I'll check the box. *goes to bathroom* *comes back and sits in front of Chichiri* According to the box they are called "Safety Swabs" and there used to be 340 of them in said box, however, the box also calls them "Cotton Swabs." *blink blink* I just call them ear cleaners because that is what they do, clean my ears. *nods*

The cotton swab monster is loose in my bathroom. I dropped a safety swab and cannot seem to find it. *sigh* Perhaps it is not a monster at all. Perhaps it is meant to save people from dangerous situations. It is called a safety swab after all. Maybe that one little swab will teach the other cotton swabs to become safety swabs.

The Life Cycle of a Cotton Swab

A young cotton swab starts out as a little piece of white fuzz called cotton. *imagine a little white fuzz* This is Herby and we will follow him through his life cycle from cotton to safety swab.

Herby wants to grow up and become a safety swab someday, just like his dad, but first he has to find a stick. *imagine little Herby roaming around in a field* The quest to find a stick is very difficult and Herby is well on his way. *Herby gets scooped up by a human hand* Oh! There goes Herby, off to the factory to find his stick. Bye bye little guy and good luck! *Herby smiles*

*Herby is now in a factory* Here at the factory Herby will find a stick and finally become a cotton swab. Look Herby, there goes a good stick! Get that one! *Herby fails to fetch the stick* Aww poor Herby, maybe the next one! *Herby sees a stick that is glowing, it must be the one for him* That a boy Herby! You got your stick!

*Herby and his stick are made into a cotton swab* Now Herby has matured into a cotton swab and will be put in a box with other cotton swabs. Look Herby, friends! *Herby looks happy and mingles*

Herby's box will be shipped to a store where someone, possibly you, could buy him and his new pals! *Herby's box is placed on a store shelf* Hiya Herby! *Herby waves* Oh look Herby, someone who might buy you and your friends! *Kush picks up box and throws it in a cart* Whoa easy there Kush, you got special cargo in that box. *Herby waves*

*Kush looks around* "Damn voices," she states with disgust. *continues to the check out*

What do you think of your new owner Herby? *Herby gives thumbs up* Yes, she does look like the sort who could use a *booming voice* safety swab *end booming voice* in her bathroom. *Herby nods*

*Herby and his buddies are in their box in Kush's bathroom* Herby waits patiently while his new owner, Kushrenada, takes his friends to clean her ears and then throws them away. Don't worry Herby, your day will come. Look, here she comes, could today be the day? *Kush grabs Herby and drops him* Go Herby, this is your chance!!! Beocome a safety swab!!! *Kush looks for ear cleaner, but no luck in finding him* *Herby scitters out of sight* Now Herby, transform! *Herby glows and yells, "Safety Swab!!!"* Look at you now Herby, you are a safety swab! Congratulations, now you can help your friends become safety swabs and protect Kushrenada from any bathroom accident. *Herby cheers as he glows with delight*

Well kids, now that you know how to become a safety swab, you too can become one, just like Herby!

The end.

Umm, I know I'm a little nuts, but please don't throw me in the loony bin. *blinks* Unless Dr. Muraki is there!!! Then lock me up and throw away the key!! ~_^

After all this nonsense, all I wanted to say was Happy birthday Meggles!