Exhorried

Exhorried

Exorried has been added to the Kush Dictionary and you might be wondering what it means. Well, all you have to do is put exhausted and worried together and you get "exhorried."

Yesterday my dad called at about 12:30 and when he said, "Hi Sher" I thought he was going to remind me to cancel my phone and all that jazz. Unfortunately, his next sentence was, "It's not good news." I knew right then he was talking about Grandpa and I was right. Grandpa had a stroke at about 10:30 a.m. and is now in the hospital. On the outside he is doing well, but the bleeding is, or was happening near his brainstem. The brainstem is not a good place to have bleeding, not that any place is good, but this is where the brain controls functions such as heartbeat, swallowing and all those things we take for granted. The doctor isn't sure if he is going to make it, or not. It is difficult for older people (he's 84) to heal and all we can do is wait. Tomorrow Grandpa is going to have a cat scan so they know if the bleeding has stopped. If it has then he has a very long road to recovery. I know for a fact Grandpa is a fighter and he is quite stubborn and will not give up easily, but once again it all depends if his brain stops bleeding.

I haven't seen him in a year and it upsets me that after all this time I have to see him like that. He was so happy we came and I know he didn't want us to leave. Scott, Steph and Boston went down there this afternoon. Scott wanted to go with us yesterday, but Steph was on a business trip in Michigan and it is difficult to drop everything, especially with a 5 year old and a dog. I'm glad they went tonight. Scott worries more than I do and I know it was breaking his heart that he couldn't be there.

I hope the cat scan shows good results tomorrow and then we can take it step by step from there.

There is so much more I could type (most of it is bitching, or stupid shit like stories about food), but I am so tired. "Sleeping" in a hospital all night isn't exactly what one would call as restful.