Well, it has been literal months since I last blogged. La sigh. There have been reasons why haven't been writing. Change in personal things, such as friends. I hate writing that, but that is how I feel.
On to good things. Meg and I went to see the Flaming Lips at the end of August and just this last weekend we went to see Stomp. Both were wonderful shows. The Flaming Lips are completely crazy! *laughs* There were dancing Santas and aliens. Now that is my kind of show. Not to mention the fact that the lead singer got into a plastic sphere and rolled around on the audience. Can you imagine rolling over people in a plastic bubble thing? O_O
Stomp showed wonderful stamina and energy during their performance. It was nonstop dancing and rhythmic pleasure. It was amazing what they used as instruments. They used newspapers, brooms, garbage cans and tubes. Those are only a few of the things I can remember them using.
Soon it will be my birthday and I will be another year older. It always amazes me how things change in such a short year. Some good and some bad, but we always march on that road that sometimes is smooth, but it also has it's mountains. Bah, I'm not going to get too serious.
So yes, that is a quick little update for you Meggles. ^_^ *laughs* I should get a shirt that says, "One person reads my blog." They do have the shirts that say, "No one reads my blog", but that would be incorrect.
I'm going to play WoW, or maybe type up Shy's point of view of things that are happening in Khori's game. Lord, I could go on and on about that one. *giggles* D&D is such a release for me. Ok, I will go write up Shy's thoughts, I mean hello 5 DM points! Yay!
Monday, October 02, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
Arizona! Arizona! Part One!
Arizona! Arizona! Part One!
Yes, it has been a while and I apologize. I admit to lazy ass syndrome. It isn't pretty when you get it because you just feel like doing nothing, but watch anime that you've been neglecting, play WoW to level your ugly priest, or you could read an array of books that interest you enough that you don't put them down. I have not written in a while and that saddens me. I love to write even if it is about nothing and here I have this whole adventure to share with my friends and I don't do a damn thing about it. Worry no more dear friends because here comes the first part of my AZ adventure and then after it is done I will update you on life.
Ahhh, Wednesday afternoon of April 26, 2006 I took the afternoon off from work so I could go see a very cute Meggles. It was soon her birthday and I had a card and a Lady and the Tramp DVD to give her. She was such a doll and gave me a jacket for my birthday (It was for the b-day, right Meg?) and it looks totally militaristic! *snuggles coat* *absolutely loves!* We originally thought about seeing a movie, but all of them were craptastic and not of any interest. We decided to just go have dinner and skip the movie. That was just fine with me because I think it was actually good for us to just sit down and visit. That was much better than a cruddy movie. We talked for some time just about stuff like work and kitties. I thank you very much Meggles-chan for giving me your bed. You shouldn't have done it really. I would have been just fine on your Ikea sofa. *nods*
My parents are such wonderful people for driving me down to the cities to see Meg and to say good bye the next morning. They stayed at a motel while I stayed with Meggles. I thank everyone who helped get me to Arizona.
That was my first day of vacation. It was peaceful and exciting at the same time. I know what you are all thinking, "But what about Arizona?" Well, that was just the first day of my vacation and I know the title is slightly deceiving, but it was the first day of the whole AZ adventure. Therefore it is appropriately called "Part One." *nods*
In Part Two I will get into the craziness that is flying and how I won gumballs. ^_^ And *gasp* yes, I will actually talk about Arizona and Char!
Yes, it has been a while and I apologize. I admit to lazy ass syndrome. It isn't pretty when you get it because you just feel like doing nothing, but watch anime that you've been neglecting, play WoW to level your ugly priest, or you could read an array of books that interest you enough that you don't put them down. I have not written in a while and that saddens me. I love to write even if it is about nothing and here I have this whole adventure to share with my friends and I don't do a damn thing about it. Worry no more dear friends because here comes the first part of my AZ adventure and then after it is done I will update you on life.
Ahhh, Wednesday afternoon of April 26, 2006 I took the afternoon off from work so I could go see a very cute Meggles. It was soon her birthday and I had a card and a Lady and the Tramp DVD to give her. She was such a doll and gave me a jacket for my birthday (It was for the b-day, right Meg?) and it looks totally militaristic! *snuggles coat* *absolutely loves!* We originally thought about seeing a movie, but all of them were craptastic and not of any interest. We decided to just go have dinner and skip the movie. That was just fine with me because I think it was actually good for us to just sit down and visit. That was much better than a cruddy movie. We talked for some time just about stuff like work and kitties. I thank you very much Meggles-chan for giving me your bed. You shouldn't have done it really. I would have been just fine on your Ikea sofa. *nods*
My parents are such wonderful people for driving me down to the cities to see Meg and to say good bye the next morning. They stayed at a motel while I stayed with Meggles. I thank everyone who helped get me to Arizona.
That was my first day of vacation. It was peaceful and exciting at the same time. I know what you are all thinking, "But what about Arizona?" Well, that was just the first day of my vacation and I know the title is slightly deceiving, but it was the first day of the whole AZ adventure. Therefore it is appropriately called "Part One." *nods*
In Part Two I will get into the craziness that is flying and how I won gumballs. ^_^ And *gasp* yes, I will actually talk about Arizona and Char!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Did The Rabid Easter Bunny Come To Eat Your Face?
Did The Rabid Easter Bunny Come To Eat Your Face?
No? Well, I guess you wouldn't be reading this if he had. I guess this would mean that I should shout to you, "Happy Easter!!!" Are you doing anything special? We're just going over to my brother's to have some din din and play with the little guy and the dog. Yay! You can bet I'll be tired when this day is over. Man, kids and dogs sure wear you out.
On Thursday I got a new prescription for glasses because mine broke and are taped, with electrical tape. *glares* No, it is not blue electrical tape and no I am not Masami. *laughs* However, I did feel slightly like him just because I used electrical tape to fix them. Man, one of us should be Masami for Halloween. It would be a great (frightening) costume and easy to make. It can't be me because I already have plans to be a hobo. Maybe I should be my hobo angel from Maiestus because that would kick ass!!! Oh, I totally got off topic. Anyway, I decided to get the no-line bifocals and man is it strange. I'm wearing my new computer glasses right now and they seem ok, but it still feels a little wiggy. It is still difficult to play World of Warcraft with them. My tummy no like and then it says, "Slosh, slosh. Motion sickness. Ahhh!" Usually I can spin the camera around like nobody's business, but with these even if I don't move the camera I feel a little sick. I guess it is supposed to take a week to get used to them. *sighs* I'm sure I will get used to them and if I don't I think they'll fix em' for free. I like the word free.
Things are going well in the new apartment. Thursday night it was a chore to get to sleep since the drunk people were extremely loud. I hope it doesn't continue too much like that. I felt like I was in the dorms again, only slightly worse. Ahhh, drunks and their loss of hearing. We all love you.
Can you believe it is almost time for me to go to Arizona? *snickers* Holy crap! All I need to say is I need to get packing!!!
Since most of you know me in real life and know the story of how I had a tiny dispute with the land lord I do not feel as if I need to put it up. Ususally I put things up just to remember them for myself, but this I don't think I care to remember. However, I do feel better about the situation. After talking to a couple of you such as Luke-san and Meggles I feel as if I did the right thing. I wasn't rude, I was just questioning what happened and now it doesn't seem so illogical. I have a right to stand up for myself and ask questions and if I hadn't I wouldn't have gotten my dad's broom back. It was the right thing to do and no one can make me think otherwise. *nods confidently* Most of you know I will do anything to avoid an argument of any sort, but if I need to I will not back down from certain things. ^_^ Poor Swiss, I know you are worried about it, but I don't think you have to be. Everything will turn out fine and we will have an awesome bachelorette pad.
Honestly, I cannot wait to have our home warming party. It is going to be wickedly fun and I am going to make some type of sushi. *nods* I won't make it with raw fish because I know a lot of people are afraid to taste it like that, so I'll make it with veggies or cooked fish. I think it would be fun to make it with shrimp, but I don't want to cut poop veins out. *crinkles nose* Ew ew ew. *laughs* Ok, I would do it if I had to, but it would be more of a pain type thing and it just seems like one of those things that would take forever.
Off I go to play a half hour of WoW. I would like to get Loutus an enchanting skill and sell stuff at the auction house because money is a good thing, especially if you want a mount. *shouts* Go rams of gallping thunder!!!! Ho! Yeah, I scare myself too.
No? Well, I guess you wouldn't be reading this if he had. I guess this would mean that I should shout to you, "Happy Easter!!!" Are you doing anything special? We're just going over to my brother's to have some din din and play with the little guy and the dog. Yay! You can bet I'll be tired when this day is over. Man, kids and dogs sure wear you out.
On Thursday I got a new prescription for glasses because mine broke and are taped, with electrical tape. *glares* No, it is not blue electrical tape and no I am not Masami. *laughs* However, I did feel slightly like him just because I used electrical tape to fix them. Man, one of us should be Masami for Halloween. It would be a great (frightening) costume and easy to make. It can't be me because I already have plans to be a hobo. Maybe I should be my hobo angel from Maiestus because that would kick ass!!! Oh, I totally got off topic. Anyway, I decided to get the no-line bifocals and man is it strange. I'm wearing my new computer glasses right now and they seem ok, but it still feels a little wiggy. It is still difficult to play World of Warcraft with them. My tummy no like and then it says, "Slosh, slosh. Motion sickness. Ahhh!" Usually I can spin the camera around like nobody's business, but with these even if I don't move the camera I feel a little sick. I guess it is supposed to take a week to get used to them. *sighs* I'm sure I will get used to them and if I don't I think they'll fix em' for free. I like the word free.
Things are going well in the new apartment. Thursday night it was a chore to get to sleep since the drunk people were extremely loud. I hope it doesn't continue too much like that. I felt like I was in the dorms again, only slightly worse. Ahhh, drunks and their loss of hearing. We all love you.
Can you believe it is almost time for me to go to Arizona? *snickers* Holy crap! All I need to say is I need to get packing!!!
Since most of you know me in real life and know the story of how I had a tiny dispute with the land lord I do not feel as if I need to put it up. Ususally I put things up just to remember them for myself, but this I don't think I care to remember. However, I do feel better about the situation. After talking to a couple of you such as Luke-san and Meggles I feel as if I did the right thing. I wasn't rude, I was just questioning what happened and now it doesn't seem so illogical. I have a right to stand up for myself and ask questions and if I hadn't I wouldn't have gotten my dad's broom back. It was the right thing to do and no one can make me think otherwise. *nods confidently* Most of you know I will do anything to avoid an argument of any sort, but if I need to I will not back down from certain things. ^_^ Poor Swiss, I know you are worried about it, but I don't think you have to be. Everything will turn out fine and we will have an awesome bachelorette pad.
Honestly, I cannot wait to have our home warming party. It is going to be wickedly fun and I am going to make some type of sushi. *nods* I won't make it with raw fish because I know a lot of people are afraid to taste it like that, so I'll make it with veggies or cooked fish. I think it would be fun to make it with shrimp, but I don't want to cut poop veins out. *crinkles nose* Ew ew ew. *laughs* Ok, I would do it if I had to, but it would be more of a pain type thing and it just seems like one of those things that would take forever.
Off I go to play a half hour of WoW. I would like to get Loutus an enchanting skill and sell stuff at the auction house because money is a good thing, especially if you want a mount. *shouts* Go rams of gallping thunder!!!! Ho! Yeah, I scare myself too.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Quiet Night In The New Apartment
Quiet Night In The New Apartment
Tonight I spend my first night alone in the new place. So far it's been quiet. Mom and I cleaned the bathroom a bit and then I jumped on the net to look for Kouga pictures. Swiss is going to be using my computer so I figured I would give her her own account and with that account I thought I would get an icon that suited her. ^_^ Yeah, ain't I a sweetie. And you all know I would do the exact same thing for the rest of you. *points* Yeah, that includes you as well.
After jogging around on the world wide web I jumped on WoW to look at poor neglected Tulouse. Little fella had a ton o'mail and he only had 3 days left to keep it. Eep! Then I jumped on as Vinni since I have been neglectful of him as well. I am proud to say he has 31 gold. *raises hands in the air and waves em' like she just don't care* Woot, woot!
It has been a very peaceful night and I am quite the happy Kush.
I did have a little rowe with my landlord, but since this is such a cheerful entry I will not get into the dumb details on it. In a future entry I shall and I will ask your opinions. It's strange, I don't get angry that often, but I got so upset with this incident. I'm not sure if I felt nagative vibes from him that this happened, or what. Like I said, in a future entry you shall have all the juicey details.
Now I am off to enjoy Coast to Coast AM because I am a paranormal geek. Toodles.
Tonight I spend my first night alone in the new place. So far it's been quiet. Mom and I cleaned the bathroom a bit and then I jumped on the net to look for Kouga pictures. Swiss is going to be using my computer so I figured I would give her her own account and with that account I thought I would get an icon that suited her. ^_^ Yeah, ain't I a sweetie. And you all know I would do the exact same thing for the rest of you. *points* Yeah, that includes you as well.
After jogging around on the world wide web I jumped on WoW to look at poor neglected Tulouse. Little fella had a ton o'mail and he only had 3 days left to keep it. Eep! Then I jumped on as Vinni since I have been neglectful of him as well. I am proud to say he has 31 gold. *raises hands in the air and waves em' like she just don't care* Woot, woot!
It has been a very peaceful night and I am quite the happy Kush.
I did have a little rowe with my landlord, but since this is such a cheerful entry I will not get into the dumb details on it. In a future entry I shall and I will ask your opinions. It's strange, I don't get angry that often, but I got so upset with this incident. I'm not sure if I felt nagative vibes from him that this happened, or what. Like I said, in a future entry you shall have all the juicey details.
Now I am off to enjoy Coast to Coast AM because I am a paranormal geek. Toodles.
Monday, March 27, 2006
Taveling & Moving
Traveling & Moving
Usually my life is quite boring and nothing really happens to me. Accept the usual, like a D&D character is going through a crisis, or I'd give you some drabble about World of Warcraft, but I actually have something to say in this entry.
Prepare for all the gossip straight from Kush's mouth. Guess who is going to Arizona? Uh huh, that would be the Kush noodle. I'm going to visit Char and her adorable pup. I cannot wait to go and see all the sights. *bounces* And you, as my friends, will be bombarded with eye candy of Arizona things! Woot! Do you think your eyes can handle it? Can they handle all the cactus, big holes in the ground and pictures of me freaking out because I'm in Arizona? Ok, so you might not want to see me, but you'll have to anyway because it's my trip and my cameras. Yes, I plan to bring my digital and film munching cameras.
Lets get one thing clear. I have been to Arizona a gazillion times before since I am the world leader and I have been to all the countries on my earth. I am a seasoned traveler and know all the ins and outs of traveling. I thought I would go on this trip incognito and see how the little people fly. *nods* I'm sure coach will be very interesting. I'll give my darling pilot Quatre a few days off. He deserves it since I fly almost every other day. I'm sure he'll be pleased.
Also, I am moving the good ol' lair to a new place. Yes, that's right I'm getting a new place to hang the epaulettes. I will be rooming with a new friend, Jen. We both need to move quite badly. She needs to get out of her expensive apartment and be closer to work and I, frankly, need to get out of the parental units house. I love the rents, but lets face it, they drive me nucking futs! All I can say is that I hope that I don't drive Jen mad from my. . . how do I say, unique personality. I am a bit odd and am quite proud of it. ^_^ I think it will work out, however, because Jen loves animation, some video games and we seem to have a similar sense of humor.
!* will never figure out the location of the new lair now! *evil laugh* No one would ever suspect. . . hmmm, Jae reads this, so I shall not say!!! You almost fooled me, almost! But I am too clever for your little tricks! No bishie, or ducky shall knock me off my guard!
Now I'm rambling like a fool because I don't know what else to say. In conclusion, I am a happy Kush! By the way, prepare to be invited over to sit in my living room and drink beverages and munch on snacks. PREPARE!!!
End transmission.
Usually my life is quite boring and nothing really happens to me. Accept the usual, like a D&D character is going through a crisis, or I'd give you some drabble about World of Warcraft, but I actually have something to say in this entry.
Prepare for all the gossip straight from Kush's mouth. Guess who is going to Arizona? Uh huh, that would be the Kush noodle. I'm going to visit Char and her adorable pup. I cannot wait to go and see all the sights. *bounces* And you, as my friends, will be bombarded with eye candy of Arizona things! Woot! Do you think your eyes can handle it? Can they handle all the cactus, big holes in the ground and pictures of me freaking out because I'm in Arizona? Ok, so you might not want to see me, but you'll have to anyway because it's my trip and my cameras. Yes, I plan to bring my digital and film munching cameras.
Lets get one thing clear. I have been to Arizona a gazillion times before since I am the world leader and I have been to all the countries on my earth. I am a seasoned traveler and know all the ins and outs of traveling. I thought I would go on this trip incognito and see how the little people fly. *nods* I'm sure coach will be very interesting. I'll give my darling pilot Quatre a few days off. He deserves it since I fly almost every other day. I'm sure he'll be pleased.
Also, I am moving the good ol' lair to a new place. Yes, that's right I'm getting a new place to hang the epaulettes. I will be rooming with a new friend, Jen. We both need to move quite badly. She needs to get out of her expensive apartment and be closer to work and I, frankly, need to get out of the parental units house. I love the rents, but lets face it, they drive me nucking futs! All I can say is that I hope that I don't drive Jen mad from my. . . how do I say, unique personality. I am a bit odd and am quite proud of it. ^_^ I think it will work out, however, because Jen loves animation, some video games and we seem to have a similar sense of humor.
!* will never figure out the location of the new lair now! *evil laugh* No one would ever suspect. . . hmmm, Jae reads this, so I shall not say!!! You almost fooled me, almost! But I am too clever for your little tricks! No bishie, or ducky shall knock me off my guard!
Now I'm rambling like a fool because I don't know what else to say. In conclusion, I am a happy Kush! By the way, prepare to be invited over to sit in my living room and drink beverages and munch on snacks. PREPARE!!!
End transmission.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Good Bye Grandpa
Good Bye Grandpa
My grandpa died a couple Fridays ago and I was sad, but I have to admit it was a relief. A lot happened at the funeral, but I wonder if it's worth putting on KD. One thing that breaks my heart is the fact the Austin was extremely upset and bawled his little blue eyes out. He's such a sweet, caring little kid and I am very proud of him. My dad got the most upset when that woman made a huge scene when the casket was leaving the church. My father left the church out the back door so he could just get away and Scott, Steph and I glared at her performance. My mom, of course, followed my dad. I hate her and I knew we all would leave that funeral with bitter memories. I was not impressed with the pastor who did my grandfather's funeral just for the fact that he completely ignored us. He didn't even say hello to us let alone a sympathetic gesture. In the end it was best we went. The whore's son came to talk to us and told us, "I just want you to know that we are not all crooks." He was very supportive of my dad while we were there. They were childhood friends and I am thankful that someone there knew we were not evil and trying to take the bitch's "money." My grandfather left us with bills and they are not small ones either. It isn't fair to them and it only makes sense that we pay off his bills with his money. My parents cannot afford to have such huge bills, frankly no one would be able to. The funeral is over, but we have to go back there to get my grandmother's things. It kind of feels like we won in a way that we at least got to take my grandparents things out of her cluttered house. I just hate going back. That area of the state will never have good memories for me and I never want to go back again. It makes me sick thinking about going back and I know the rest of my family feels the same way.
Work has been too busy and we are down another compositor. She handed in her two weeks notice on Monday. Things are going good for me, however, and I have no plans on leaving anytime soon. I love doing ads, but it can get a little stressful because we need our hours back and they need to hire someone to help us. If we had our 2.5 hours a week back it would make things a lot better, but of course they are trying to save that ever popular dollar. I hate money and it's necessity. *spits on money* I hate how greed makes people stupid and. . . I won't get into my greed rant.
World of Warcraft is going well. It is taking me forever to get my characters up in level because I constantly get yelled at to get off. *sigh* I am having a splendid time running around though and it is getting to the point that I need to fly gryffons to get around because running just takes to dang long.
Finally I got my raise at work and Nancy did it right. Woot! *waves little flag* Hmm, not much else to type. I work my night shifts today and tomorrow. I don't mind them like others do because I am a total night owl and I get 60 cents more an hour for those shifts, so happy. Off I go to eat lunch and play a little WoW.
My grandpa died a couple Fridays ago and I was sad, but I have to admit it was a relief. A lot happened at the funeral, but I wonder if it's worth putting on KD. One thing that breaks my heart is the fact the Austin was extremely upset and bawled his little blue eyes out. He's such a sweet, caring little kid and I am very proud of him. My dad got the most upset when that woman made a huge scene when the casket was leaving the church. My father left the church out the back door so he could just get away and Scott, Steph and I glared at her performance. My mom, of course, followed my dad. I hate her and I knew we all would leave that funeral with bitter memories. I was not impressed with the pastor who did my grandfather's funeral just for the fact that he completely ignored us. He didn't even say hello to us let alone a sympathetic gesture. In the end it was best we went. The whore's son came to talk to us and told us, "I just want you to know that we are not all crooks." He was very supportive of my dad while we were there. They were childhood friends and I am thankful that someone there knew we were not evil and trying to take the bitch's "money." My grandfather left us with bills and they are not small ones either. It isn't fair to them and it only makes sense that we pay off his bills with his money. My parents cannot afford to have such huge bills, frankly no one would be able to. The funeral is over, but we have to go back there to get my grandmother's things. It kind of feels like we won in a way that we at least got to take my grandparents things out of her cluttered house. I just hate going back. That area of the state will never have good memories for me and I never want to go back again. It makes me sick thinking about going back and I know the rest of my family feels the same way.
Work has been too busy and we are down another compositor. She handed in her two weeks notice on Monday. Things are going good for me, however, and I have no plans on leaving anytime soon. I love doing ads, but it can get a little stressful because we need our hours back and they need to hire someone to help us. If we had our 2.5 hours a week back it would make things a lot better, but of course they are trying to save that ever popular dollar. I hate money and it's necessity. *spits on money* I hate how greed makes people stupid and. . . I won't get into my greed rant.
World of Warcraft is going well. It is taking me forever to get my characters up in level because I constantly get yelled at to get off. *sigh* I am having a splendid time running around though and it is getting to the point that I need to fly gryffons to get around because running just takes to dang long.
Finally I got my raise at work and Nancy did it right. Woot! *waves little flag* Hmm, not much else to type. I work my night shifts today and tomorrow. I don't mind them like others do because I am a total night owl and I get 60 cents more an hour for those shifts, so happy. Off I go to eat lunch and play a little WoW.
Friday, February 03, 2006
Once Again!
Once Again!
It is Kushrenada's Delusion's birthday again! Seriously, where does the time go? It seems just yesterday I started this blog. *sniff* *hugs* Happy b-day little guy! You are officially Thwee yeaws owd. *bakes cake* *eats* Yum!
I should really get a new design. *nods* Unfortunately I don't like the one's they have on blogger and I have no clue how to do it myself. Blog layouts 101 here I come! Whee!
I have a feeling WoW will consume this creative idea of mine. *laughs* *WoW devours*
*blink blink* What was I talking about. . .
It is Kushrenada's Delusion's birthday again! Seriously, where does the time go? It seems just yesterday I started this blog. *sniff* *hugs* Happy b-day little guy! You are officially Thwee yeaws owd. *bakes cake* *eats* Yum!
I should really get a new design. *nods* Unfortunately I don't like the one's they have on blogger and I have no clue how to do it myself. Blog layouts 101 here I come! Whee!
I have a feeling WoW will consume this creative idea of mine. *laughs* *WoW devours*
*blink blink* What was I talking about. . .
I Am Here, Kinda
I Am Here, Kinda
I'm pretty sure I am a) allergic to something at work, or b) I have a sinus infection of doom. I have had a cold all fall and this winter. I'm miserable and I feel bad for everyone at work who has to here the delightful noises of snot being removed from my nose and on to a kleenex. My nose is kind of dripping right now, but I don't care, I'm sick of tissue. Ok. . . it's dripping more, maybe I should get a kleenex. *runs off* *releases snot from nasal cavity* I know you didn't want that image, but I am a mean person. *nods*
I know I have not typed on here in ages and I have to apologize for that. Sorry. And then when I do come back I sound miserable and cranky. I apologize for that too. *sighs* I'll tell you all more bad news and then I'll tell you happy news because I try to leave off on a positive note.
My grandpa is dying. I hate to put it so bluntly, but it is the only way I can put it. He is fighting 3 infections and has pnemonia, which the doctor told us that it is "the old man's friend." It was given this name because they just slip away in their sleep. I'm glad for that, but it is difficult seeing my grandpa so weak. I wish I could get some type of medical gadget that sucks out all the goo from his lungs. Most people would be sad an cry when something like this happens, but I find that I cannot. Although I feel horrible that he is dying I can't help, but feel relieved. The relief of knowing he won't hurt my dad anymore. Relief in knowing he isn't suffering anymore. Relief in the fact that I won't have to deal with her anymore. Life can maybe become normal again and Dad will be able to rest peacefully again. I will be happy when I don't have to hear about the horrible things she's done over and over again.
I'm sorry Grandpa, but I cannot feel for you as I did Grandma. You have proven yourself to be greedy and easily manipulated and for that I cannot cry for you. I have forgiven you, but I will never forget how you treated your son just so you could have all your "needs" taken care of. These are things I wish I could tell you, but you will never hear, or read them and that is best.
I hate pouring my heart out like that, but that is just how I feel. I feel detatched from him and it hurts because I used to look up to him when I was a kid. He was the main reason I thought photography was so neat. I could go on, but I won't because frankly it isn't necessary. Life throws shit at you sometimes and all you can do is clean it up and move on and that is what I plan on doing. Once this whole ordeal is done I'm putting on the rubber gloves and grabbing the mop because I cannot dwell on it. *nods*
Ok, on to happy things!!! I have a new shiny cable modem. I got it. . . *thinks* mid-January and it has been a wonderful thing. Kate and Mike bought me World of Warcraft for Christmas and this is basically the reason I got the high speed net. I know what you are about to say, "Kush, it's February and you got the modem about 2 weeks ago, so why didn't you POST!" Well, that is answered with a simple three worlds, World of Warcraft. Darn game consumes your life and you forever live in Azeroth. *nods*
My characters thus far: Tulouse (only way I could get it to work on WoW) is a paladin and is very similar to my D&D character. He is generous and calm, but get him on the topic of theatre and the man changes. He becomes dramatic and starts blurting out Shakespeare quotes. His favoritie play is Hamlet. Gee, I wonder why that is? *giggles*
Vinni is my priest and he is a gruff fellow, but definitely means well. He has a huge heart and loves to help those in need. He has a bunny named Mopsy and a chicken named Friar. Get it, he's a priest and it's a chicken. *laughs* I am 100% dork, but I think I'm more fun that way. Anyway, he loves to go pick herbs and make potions. He also recently starting selling stuff at the auction house. :)
Wilbi is a sweet druid with a slight attitude and she adores dancing. She plans on learning how to fish because she thinks it would be great to sit around and reflect on life and anything in general while she waits for the big bite. She obviously wants to protect nature and keep things in balance. She would be great to have in a party because she's spunky, yet kind.
Loutus (Also another one I had to creatively spell) is Fahkir's sister and I made her a warlock. What a shocker. She is definately a big sister type and will beat anyone's ass who plans to hurt, or hurts her siblings. She is more of a city girl who likes the noise and the many goings on of city life. Although she hates her demon side she doesn't mind having demons do as she wills. She will make an excellent warlock. :)
Those are my characters I have actually played, but I have a couple more waiting in the wings. I don't want to overload myself on new characters. I want to get my first characters up in levels before I make new ones.
The expansion comes out next spring/summer and that should be exciting. Yay! *bounces* New stuff to do as well as new races! Wootness!
Ok, I'm going to bed now. I have to call the doctor tomorrow so she can fix me. Also another good thing that happened, and yes this is related to the doctor sentence, I got my insurance card! Finally! That's all I have to say about that. :) Ok, good night/morning!
I'm pretty sure I am a) allergic to something at work, or b) I have a sinus infection of doom. I have had a cold all fall and this winter. I'm miserable and I feel bad for everyone at work who has to here the delightful noises of snot being removed from my nose and on to a kleenex. My nose is kind of dripping right now, but I don't care, I'm sick of tissue. Ok. . . it's dripping more, maybe I should get a kleenex. *runs off* *releases snot from nasal cavity* I know you didn't want that image, but I am a mean person. *nods*
I know I have not typed on here in ages and I have to apologize for that. Sorry. And then when I do come back I sound miserable and cranky. I apologize for that too. *sighs* I'll tell you all more bad news and then I'll tell you happy news because I try to leave off on a positive note.
My grandpa is dying. I hate to put it so bluntly, but it is the only way I can put it. He is fighting 3 infections and has pnemonia, which the doctor told us that it is "the old man's friend." It was given this name because they just slip away in their sleep. I'm glad for that, but it is difficult seeing my grandpa so weak. I wish I could get some type of medical gadget that sucks out all the goo from his lungs. Most people would be sad an cry when something like this happens, but I find that I cannot. Although I feel horrible that he is dying I can't help, but feel relieved. The relief of knowing he won't hurt my dad anymore. Relief in knowing he isn't suffering anymore. Relief in the fact that I won't have to deal with her anymore. Life can maybe become normal again and Dad will be able to rest peacefully again. I will be happy when I don't have to hear about the horrible things she's done over and over again.
I'm sorry Grandpa, but I cannot feel for you as I did Grandma. You have proven yourself to be greedy and easily manipulated and for that I cannot cry for you. I have forgiven you, but I will never forget how you treated your son just so you could have all your "needs" taken care of. These are things I wish I could tell you, but you will never hear, or read them and that is best.
I hate pouring my heart out like that, but that is just how I feel. I feel detatched from him and it hurts because I used to look up to him when I was a kid. He was the main reason I thought photography was so neat. I could go on, but I won't because frankly it isn't necessary. Life throws shit at you sometimes and all you can do is clean it up and move on and that is what I plan on doing. Once this whole ordeal is done I'm putting on the rubber gloves and grabbing the mop because I cannot dwell on it. *nods*
Ok, on to happy things!!! I have a new shiny cable modem. I got it. . . *thinks* mid-January and it has been a wonderful thing. Kate and Mike bought me World of Warcraft for Christmas and this is basically the reason I got the high speed net. I know what you are about to say, "Kush, it's February and you got the modem about 2 weeks ago, so why didn't you POST!" Well, that is answered with a simple three worlds, World of Warcraft. Darn game consumes your life and you forever live in Azeroth. *nods*
My characters thus far: Tulouse (only way I could get it to work on WoW) is a paladin and is very similar to my D&D character. He is generous and calm, but get him on the topic of theatre and the man changes. He becomes dramatic and starts blurting out Shakespeare quotes. His favoritie play is Hamlet. Gee, I wonder why that is? *giggles*
Vinni is my priest and he is a gruff fellow, but definitely means well. He has a huge heart and loves to help those in need. He has a bunny named Mopsy and a chicken named Friar. Get it, he's a priest and it's a chicken. *laughs* I am 100% dork, but I think I'm more fun that way. Anyway, he loves to go pick herbs and make potions. He also recently starting selling stuff at the auction house. :)
Wilbi is a sweet druid with a slight attitude and she adores dancing. She plans on learning how to fish because she thinks it would be great to sit around and reflect on life and anything in general while she waits for the big bite. She obviously wants to protect nature and keep things in balance. She would be great to have in a party because she's spunky, yet kind.
Loutus (Also another one I had to creatively spell) is Fahkir's sister and I made her a warlock. What a shocker. She is definately a big sister type and will beat anyone's ass who plans to hurt, or hurts her siblings. She is more of a city girl who likes the noise and the many goings on of city life. Although she hates her demon side she doesn't mind having demons do as she wills. She will make an excellent warlock. :)
Those are my characters I have actually played, but I have a couple more waiting in the wings. I don't want to overload myself on new characters. I want to get my first characters up in levels before I make new ones.
The expansion comes out next spring/summer and that should be exciting. Yay! *bounces* New stuff to do as well as new races! Wootness!
Ok, I'm going to bed now. I have to call the doctor tomorrow so she can fix me. Also another good thing that happened, and yes this is related to the doctor sentence, I got my insurance card! Finally! That's all I have to say about that. :) Ok, good night/morning!
