I Am Here, Kinda

I Am Here, Kinda

I'm pretty sure I am a) allergic to something at work, or b) I have a sinus infection of doom. I have had a cold all fall and this winter. I'm miserable and I feel bad for everyone at work who has to here the delightful noises of snot being removed from my nose and on to a kleenex. My nose is kind of dripping right now, but I don't care, I'm sick of tissue. Ok. . . it's dripping more, maybe I should get a kleenex. *runs off* *releases snot from nasal cavity* I know you didn't want that image, but I am a mean person. *nods*

I know I have not typed on here in ages and I have to apologize for that. Sorry. And then when I do come back I sound miserable and cranky. I apologize for that too. *sighs* I'll tell you all more bad news and then I'll tell you happy news because I try to leave off on a positive note.

My grandpa is dying. I hate to put it so bluntly, but it is the only way I can put it. He is fighting 3 infections and has pnemonia, which the doctor told us that it is "the old man's friend." It was given this name because they just slip away in their sleep. I'm glad for that, but it is difficult seeing my grandpa so weak. I wish I could get some type of medical gadget that sucks out all the goo from his lungs. Most people would be sad an cry when something like this happens, but I find that I cannot. Although I feel horrible that he is dying I can't help, but feel relieved. The relief of knowing he won't hurt my dad anymore. Relief in knowing he isn't suffering anymore. Relief in the fact that I won't have to deal with her anymore. Life can maybe become normal again and Dad will be able to rest peacefully again. I will be happy when I don't have to hear about the horrible things she's done over and over again.

I'm sorry Grandpa, but I cannot feel for you as I did Grandma. You have proven yourself to be greedy and easily manipulated and for that I cannot cry for you. I have forgiven you, but I will never forget how you treated your son just so you could have all your "needs" taken care of. These are things I wish I could tell you, but you will never hear, or read them and that is best.

I hate pouring my heart out like that, but that is just how I feel. I feel detatched from him and it hurts because I used to look up to him when I was a kid. He was the main reason I thought photography was so neat. I could go on, but I won't because frankly it isn't necessary. Life throws shit at you sometimes and all you can do is clean it up and move on and that is what I plan on doing. Once this whole ordeal is done I'm putting on the rubber gloves and grabbing the mop because I cannot dwell on it. *nods*

Ok, on to happy things!!! I have a new shiny cable modem. I got it. . . *thinks* mid-January and it has been a wonderful thing. Kate and Mike bought me World of Warcraft for Christmas and this is basically the reason I got the high speed net. I know what you are about to say, "Kush, it's February and you got the modem about 2 weeks ago, so why didn't you POST!" Well, that is answered with a simple three worlds, World of Warcraft. Darn game consumes your life and you forever live in Azeroth. *nods*

My characters thus far: Tulouse (only way I could get it to work on WoW) is a paladin and is very similar to my D&D character. He is generous and calm, but get him on the topic of theatre and the man changes. He becomes dramatic and starts blurting out Shakespeare quotes. His favoritie play is Hamlet. Gee, I wonder why that is? *giggles*

Vinni is my priest and he is a gruff fellow, but definitely means well. He has a huge heart and loves to help those in need. He has a bunny named Mopsy and a chicken named Friar. Get it, he's a priest and it's a chicken. *laughs* I am 100% dork, but I think I'm more fun that way. Anyway, he loves to go pick herbs and make potions. He also recently starting selling stuff at the auction house. :)

Wilbi is a sweet druid with a slight attitude and she adores dancing. She plans on learning how to fish because she thinks it would be great to sit around and reflect on life and anything in general while she waits for the big bite. She obviously wants to protect nature and keep things in balance. She would be great to have in a party because she's spunky, yet kind.

Loutus (Also another one I had to creatively spell) is Fahkir's sister and I made her a warlock. What a shocker. She is definately a big sister type and will beat anyone's ass who plans to hurt, or hurts her siblings. She is more of a city girl who likes the noise and the many goings on of city life. Although she hates her demon side she doesn't mind having demons do as she wills. She will make an excellent warlock. :)

Those are my characters I have actually played, but I have a couple more waiting in the wings. I don't want to overload myself on new characters. I want to get my first characters up in levels before I make new ones.

The expansion comes out next spring/summer and that should be exciting. Yay! *bounces* New stuff to do as well as new races! Wootness!

Ok, I'm going to bed now. I have to call the doctor tomorrow so she can fix me. Also another good thing that happened, and yes this is related to the doctor sentence, I got my insurance card! Finally! That's all I have to say about that. :) Ok, good night/morning!