Rendering Blues

I am reporting from the Super Lab folks. It is crazy while I try and finish my project. The odds seem to be against me. Yes, I doubt that I will have this done by tomorrow morning at 8 A.M. Damn my procrastination and damn Form.Z. I am not going to do this anymore. I think the problem was that I hit that wall that Barb is always talking about and I think I hit it hard. I didn't want to do anything related to school. I wanted to give my brain a break and because of that time of slight depression I am behind. In all honesty, I am feeling a lot better. I was very unmotivated and I believe there are reasons for that. Between school and other big things in my life I just wanted to go into a little hole and be alone. Fortunately, I got a ladder and went over this brick wall that I rammed into. I don't know if I should tell Barb that I was having a mental break down because I honestly think she would care. *shrugs* Maybe I will give Ms. Hanus a visit if I don't get my stuff done. I still won't get full points, but at least she would know why. I am happy that I did get over that wall all by myself. I think that is something to be proud of.

I can't wait for next weekend because I will be coming home. Yay! November 18 is Scott's birthday and we will be celebrating it. He doesn't want a party, but that will never happen. In our family you have birthday parties every single year for the rest of your life. I was surprised to find out that not everyone celebrates their birthdays with parties. I have come to the conclusion that we do it because we are a small family and it is a great time for us to get together. Maybe the reason is because we like to party. Who knows. Well, enough of my rambling. I'm going to go surf the net, or draw in my sketch book while I wait for my renderings to be done.