I Remain A Fool

(I’m not the fool. Talia thinks she is the fool. I guess what I’m saying is, this is a Talia entry. If you are not interested in her thoughts and feelings then you should stop. If you are curious about her then read, read NOW!)

Fools make the same mistakes twice and I am one of those fools. Of course my mistake had good intentions, but I made it still the same. I feel hurt, confused, tired and I feel as if I’m going to crumble. I feel as if I’m always the one that needs saving. I hate that. First Saki had to save me all the time, my brothers save me, my parents tried to save me and they died because of it, and now poor Athriel has to put up with my ineptitude. The thought of running away has crossed my mind, but that would just leave to more saving. I’m so frustrated!

I guess I’ll start from the beginning so you understand how I came by these feelings. Athriel and I had just said good bye to our dear friends. We had decided to go on a quest for oranges. I thought a silly little quest would make him feel better. I know this is off subject, but I am very pleased to say that I sent a letter to Solude through air mail. From what I understand wind sorcerers deliver mail in Endrmia. I just hope he received it. We walked a while in Endramia and then decided to go to Maiestus. I think Athriel was glad for the change of scenery. We plane shifted and found ourselves in the Megalith Forest. I am familiar with this region and gave Athriel a couple of choices. We could have gone to the logging village west of the forest, north to the elven city named after the forest, or south which I am not all that familiar. He seemed extremely interested in the city of the elves, so we headed north. You see, most elves in his world, the Sidhe, are evil and cruel. I was happy to show him the peaceful Megalith Forest. We had so much fun there. You should have seen Athriel’s expression when he saw a gnome for the first time! A young entrepreneur, named Prisca, (I think that was her name because that is what was on the sign.) sold us a delicious pie and gave us odd looking juice that tasted quite good. Also during our wanderings in the city we came across my friend and colleague, Dr. Hatake Kakashi. I think he was surprised to see me, but happy. He told us great news of a gentleman who donated quite a bit to the hospital. I wish I knew his name so I could send him a thank you. We said good bye to him and Tipsi stopped us to chat. For some odd reason Ijou put it in her head that I would steal Kakashi from her. She is not one to beat around the bush and asked outright, “Would you ever steal Kakashi away from me?” I told her I would never do that. Other than that off the wall question we had a pleasant visit with her. Athriel seemed to be in better spirits here and that made me feel very good. We went shopping and found an adorable toy store. The shopkeeper had so many interesting toys. There were wooden swords and Athriel “attacked me.” I grabbed a stuff dragon and it protected me. See? I don’t even protect myself when I play silly games. Anyway, the stuffed dragon saved me from Athriel, but then turned out to be a horrible evil dragon. The dragon, controlled by Athriel, attacked me, but I saved myself by grabbing a teddy bear. I think I know what my problem is. I have damsel in distress syndrome. Anyway, we had a wonderful laugh and the shopkeeper even gave us candy. Lollipops are quite delicious. It is getting cold near the mountains and the night made it seem chillier. I shivered and Athriel put his cloak around me. I would have put my own cloak on, but I didn’t want to be rude. That was very kind of him. He is such a sweet person. He even held the door open for me at the inn. Every time I think of him and how kind he has been to me my. . . heart skips a beat and I smile. I am very fortunate to have him here.

The next day Athriel went to visit Meldronna in Andronikov. He left that morning and I went to find Kakashi. I figured since I was around we could get some hospital business done. I walked over to where his parents live and saw him rolling on the ground with a dark gray dragon with iridescent scales. Kakashi held a small red ball and the baby dragon tried his best to get it. Kakashi looked over at me and smiled as he threw the ball. The little dragon chased it under a bush. We made plans to meet at the tavern during dinnertime and talk about the hospital. I decided to head north to the Megalith Mines. It wasn’t too far from the city and I figured by flying I could save myself a lot of time. Treize, my brother, is there and I thought it would be a good time to see him. I didn’t want to do it, but I also intended on telling him about my stupidity with my wings. As I walked on the main road leading out of town something caught my eye. In an alleyway there were two teenage boys beating up a man in a long gray coat. One of the boys hit him square in the nose and the crimson blood started to flow. Drawing my great sword I ran over to help. The boys saw me running toward them and started to run. The beaten man fell to the ground. I had to make a choice, go after the boys and bring them to justice, or help the man laying on the ground. The groans from the beaten man made my choice easy. I had to help the man. This sounds like a kind thing to do, but this is where I made my mistake. Helping this bleeding, beaten man is something I will regret for the rest of my eternal life.

(As you can see, this entry is HUGE and I’m not even done yet. I’m going to stop here and continue it later. Poor Tal and Ath. *sighs* Oh well.)