Why Hello Blog. It's Been A While.

It's been so long since I have actually written anything in this spot.  Not that it matters really.  I never had many followers to begin with, but now I have zero.  Unless you count my husband Rend.  Then it would be one!  Good enough for me though.  I write for me and no one else.  ^_^

So many things have happened over these many years.  Good and bad have happened.  My last entry was in April 2010 and you would have thought I would have been excited to write all about wedding prep and getting married.  The honeymoon.  Moving and so many other wonderful things.  However, my dad died in June of 2010 and I kind of lost the blogging bug.  It was difficult to deal with him dying one year before I was to be married.  I felt like I had lost so many important things a bride gets to experience on her wedding day.  LOL.  I'm crying even now and it has been four years since his death.  However, this meant my dad couldn't walk me down the isle, no father and daughter dance and all the family pictures I would loved to have had him in.

There are so many things I could say about my dad, how he loved to talk and what a work-a-holic he was.  However, I don't think I have the wherewithal to even try.  I don't even have the words to write about him.  It's a shame really because he honestly deserves beautiful words to be written about him.  I can honestly say that I do miss him very much.

This is life and no matter what is thrown at you, you take it and move on.  It may be painful, but over time you heal and move on to something new.  Lets not forget that some pain takes a hell of a lot longer to heal than others.  Sadly death happens to be one of those pains.  I don't think I will ever truly heal from my dad's death, but I believe it will lessen.

GOOD NEWS!  I have been married for 3 years!  Rend is a wonderful husband!  I love him so much and I know we will be married for many more years!  He is so supportive in everything I do and he shows his love in so many ways.  I don't know how he does it, but when I am feeling down he literally can make me laugh by singing, or dancing.  He is not afraid to act silly (like a fool, if you will) to cheer me up.  If I am depressed he says, "Is some one's giggler broken?"  I quickly turn my head to hide my smile, but he knows exactly what he did, he lightened my mood.  I will always be thankful for finding such a wonderful man, who actually found me first.  :P  Thank you interwebs for helping me find a hubby!  Seriously, I thought I was going to be an eternal bachelorette!

So for many years I have been struggling with my weight and once I got my new job I gained more weight!  O_O  I joined weight watchers at the end of January and I have lost 32 POUNDS!!!  Someday I shall give my weight I started at, but I am not that confident yet.  I know no one reads this, but the Internet is a big place and you never know who will stumble across your blog.

Sorry for the messy entry.  I feel like it was not written well AT ALL!  I know I'm not the best writer, but this one in particular is not good.  It's fine though.  I hope the blogging bug bites again and hopefully I will write some more for therapeutic reasons.  I always did have fun doing this blog.  It seems like I always have story ideas that I never get down, so hopefully this will motivate me to do more than journal entries.