I Wish I Didn't Care

Grandpa and Ardel (I wonder if I spelled that right? Oh well, I really don't care because I usually spell her name w-h-o-r-e.) had a garage sale Thur.-Sat. I know this because Grandpa called Mom and Dad while they were at work. Dad called him back to see what was up. Grandpa told him about the sale and asked if Scott wanted the ban saw. Dad explained that would be up to Scott. Well Scott, Steph, and Boston went down to Albany yesterday to buy the ban saw. I wouldn't have even bothered if it was me. I did want to go, but I couldn't because my futon came yesterday. Before my grandpa had wanted scott to buy the saw for $250, but then charged him $300! I would have said, "Screw you." and left. Ok, maybe not, but I'm so tired of this shit from my grandpa and his bitch. Scott doesn't think they are, or are getting married. In a way I hope he's right, but I really don't think he is. I can hope right? Supposedly they were getting married in September and of course we have not heard anything about it. I of course would never had gone. When my brother was talking to Grandpa he told Scott that he sold the farm because my dad didn't come visit him enough. He's getting revenge. How fucking childish of him! I guess they didn't even invite Scott, Steph, and Boston in! They're his grandchildren and they didn't even invite them in! It seemed like Grandpa wanted them to take the ban saw and leave. I guess they went to KFC *gags* for dinner, but that doesn't mean much. I told Meg that I didn't care anymore, but she saw right through me. I do care and I guess that's the problem, I wish I didn't. If I didn't care, or love my grandpa it wouldn't hurt so much. I'm hurt and angry and I wish it would end. I'm tired of dreaming about them and the dumb things they do. I'm tired of seeing their faces when I should be dreaming about D&D adventures. I'm tired of them hurting Dad! I want to forget, but how do you forget someone you've loved for almost 24 years? It hurts worse knowing he never did love, or gave up his love for us so easily. I just wish I didn't care.