Clipping My Wings

Hi, it’s me Talia again. Sher wants me to write more because she wants me to see the light. Whatever that means. I don’t think she wants me to clip my wings and become human. What she doesn’t understand, along with everyone else, is that I have to. It confuses me how people do not understand the logic in doing so. Here is my logic. I have acidic poison for feathers that any evil being with an intelligence would love to have. If I cut my wings there would be no possibility of someone more powerful than myself using my feathers against my will.

I acted like a fool when we stayed at Ijou Kaii’s tower. I selfishly asked him if he would be able to paint me as a human. He is quite powerful when it comes to paint and a canvas and I knew he might be able to help. He agreed to help, but I fear I have acted too quickly out of desperation. I willingly gave him some of my feathers to mix in the paint he is going to use for my portrait. I trust him with the feathers, but I hope nothing happens when he uses the toxic paint. I honestly do not even know why he agreed to help me. Ijou seems nice enough, but I don’t know if he is really the type to. . . I don’t know, help me? Lucrecia was kidnapped by three baby summer dragons and while he seemed slightly concerned when we got her back he didn’t help when she was in danger. He was in his tower and could never have known why she was screaming. Fortunately, Athriel and I were outside taking a walk. We heard her scream and were able to keep up to her and the dragons by flying. *laughs* Poor girl, the dragons thought she was their mother because of her flowing red hair and bright green eyes. Fortunately, we had met a summer dragon in Alicci and she decided to adopt the three hatchlings. Anyway, my point is, I acted irrationally by asking him to help. In a way, I thought he would just say no and leave it at that. My colleague, Dr. Kakashi spoke kindly of him when we were making plans to start up a free hospital, but it seemed like he didn’t want to talk too much about him. I did promise Ijou that I wouldn’t clip my wings until he got the painting to purify my wings done. I told him that I would do it if the painting didn’t work, but I’ll wait until then. He isn’t going to work on it right away. He is a professor at a school and he has teaching duties. Young minds come before my wings, so I can definitely wait. Plus, I have other ideas to keep my feathers from getting into the wrong hands. I will pluck every feather from my wings, excluding the metallic ones, and burn them.